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dear blog.

title explain everything.
but why?why is it happened to me?not anyone else?
once i heard."Allah takkan menguji hamba-Nya unless that hamba btul2 fit enuff to carry da burden."
i dun really remember dat ayat from Al-Quran.but da meaning is still da same.
basically.i’m in a lot of trouble.
my wish.my hope of having 2007 as smoothly as i want it to be is gone now.

langit x selalu nye cerah.i keep on wondering.when the cerah will come?
coz my days now kinda cloudy.n heck.i’m so stress out.

no mood.its 7 am.need to tdo.

hell yeah.
its de end of beta year.yihaa.n gosh.i still cant believe dat its been
a year now since i’m studying at cyber.how time flies~ xrs pape pn =P

well.juz finished my final xm.cant really think bout it ryt now.papepn berserah n bertawakal pd Allah.hope n i’ll pray for da best.lgpon dis is my last chance to prove to ytm dat i still can manage to get 3 pointer for my cgpa.ngahaha.can i? well.juz wait n see.if things turn out to be as i-cant-fulfill-what-ytm-wants,i’m dead!yataaaaaaa~XP

well.i’ve mentally n physically prepared for it.well.definitely if i’ve been terminated from ytm scholar (gosh oh Lord.plz help me.amin~ ) it surely sux.confirm pnyee.but papepn.org ckp ready for da worst.hiahia.so then.basically plan jangke ms pjg aku.if ak x dpt laa smbung scholar aku ni..

1) get seriously into biznes.buat btul2.ak taw.biznes ak ley sukses.it juz me yg cam maleh gile nk wat.ak kne stat blk ni.musti ol out.insyaAllah.mane ak nk cekau duet baya 30k kt ytm smule?xkn nk hrp kn ayah ak?

2) apply ptptn? hahaha.mmg besh.but i heard rumors saying dat ptptn xmo sponsor bdk2 telecomunication?haha.gile gedix.ape mslh plak ngn majoring ak tu smpai xmo sponsor?ciss.

3) getting to work?hell yeah.i’ve got my biz.lampe berger! here i come! mwahaha =D~

oh well.now i’ve done nothing at home.tlg mak pn ala qadar aja.mkn.tdo.not saying dat i juz wasting my bloody time doing nothing.its dat compare to my life d cmpus,mmg sgt berbeza! totally different.skrg lepak2.kt cmpus dlu.cam ampeh je
study.rushing abes.xckup mase.i really hate it.so now.cherish da moment.bile lg nk spend time mcm ni? haha =P

oh ya.td anai ade ckp psl nk turun ipoh.i dun mind.lgpn da berzmn xjpe die.xde la berzmn.its like.a year kot.b4 i entered mmu cyber.i went to taiping to collect my sijil spm.dats da last time i met her.n for anyone yg ter accidentaly read my blog.especially bdak2 mrsm grik batch ak laa.batch 8.oi orang2 kg.kite bakal mengade kn 2nd reU (after reU las year x rmai yg pegi.hihi) so.mari kite gegar
bukit nasah,kenayat!!! huahuahua =D~

juz now.i’ve been stressed out.hell yeah.i dun know whut else shud i do.it keep on disturbing my mind.my soul.my jiwe rage bakul sume.particularly.cant tell bout it here.certain peeps je kot?dis "illness" sux.i wanna get out of it.sial.

sorry for de harsh word.i juz cant think of any word dat cud represent what i felt.huha.pedulik hape ak.

till then.blogging is not my passion.sj suke2.whteva it is.later.

dear bloggie.

its cny celebration.n now i’m sitting ryt here.in my lovely room.
wondering.pondering.thinking bout what imma suppose to do.
there’s so much things inside my head now.
bout my study.bout my feeling.bout others.bout biz.bout people thoughts.bout my scholar.
kinda berkecamuk.
n i do felt serabut sumtyms.
i do wish dat i could panjangkn dis holiday forever n ever.
its juz a wish.naah.i dun think it will be grant.

MY STUDY
-i dun really concentrate on dis thingy ryt now.i dunno why.too tired mayb.
thinking bout my scholar.givin’ me headache.tho dis is my last semester to prove dat i can! but will i? i dun really believing in myself ryt now.

MY FEELING
-frankly speaking.i love someone.hell no,i dint tell him bout what i felt.but if i get him.i will appreciate him for the rest of my life.till i die.i swear.

OTHERS
-others mean kwn2.jauh hati is perkare biase for me skrg ni.i do noticed the differences.b4 i join.n after.sumtimes.kwn2 ad time gmbira je.kn?

BIZ
-no comment.

PEOPLE THOUGHTS
-to be honest.i had pinjam sum money from my friends.n i will pay back on time.i dun want they think dat i am like "cakap xley pakai" i dun want them lost their trust in me.i hate dat.

dats ol.

mayb nxt time.

mood swing: so-so
currently listening to:move on by Rain(Bi) (repeating over n over again) =)

ola bloggie.
based on my title.well,its a simple one,could describe many things.i’m turning 20 dis year n yet i’ve been 20 since last 2 days ago.n basically now my age is 20 yrs n 2 days.kewl huh? X)
enuff bout de simple calculation.i’ve been so malas to update my blog act.when i tried to type sumthing ere,i owezz blank n blur.sitting in front of my laptop try to figure out wut kind of story shud i shared to all of my fellas.

the year of 2006 had kinda drifted away n now we’re in 2007.
i think it might not too late for me to wish happy new year to all of my fwens.since on dat particular day,sum of my friends had wish me "happy new year" but i kind of ignore it coz i’m so bz struggling-suffering-nauseous reading dat electronics note.besides,i’m so tired after dat konvoi-raye-beramai-ramai to 5 houses but yet,the distance between one house to another house is sooooooo long.our las destination wuz batang berjuntai,dynat’s house.but,its kinda fun thou.i really enjoying myself dat day.even thou i had to against my diet program.wuwuwuwu XP

b4 i forget to mention,i juz finished my final xm.n it felt lyk forever to finished those examination.i only hv 2 papers for dis sem.since the unexpected incident happened to not only me but involving all engine student form cyber n mlca,we had to re-sit electronics paper again.hahaha.lol.kinda klakar.mayb dis is my 2nd chance to skor for een 1026 coz my coursework mark is oso not so good.n yet its true.i think i did much better compare to my 1st paper.

n b’coz of dat re-sit-re-take-ambik smule paper,i had to cancel ol de plan that i’ve been on wif shza since early december.siot x?haha.plan baek pnye.shopping-watching movies-bowling-karaoke wif amir.but then.its too late for us to accomplish our mission.n its impossible coz if i wanna extend my day to stay at cyber till tuesday,i will die coz of homesick.haha.i’m sooo omsick at dat tym coz as usual i’ve neve been back home for my 2nd sem.
so,after my last paper,shaz n i asked for amir’s sympathy to gv us a lift to putrajaya sentral.gile mls nk nek bas.moreover,shaz n me kinda bring big luggage.wif our jacket lg.wahh..our jacket.(padahal ak pnjm sumone’s jacket.tehehe~)reached ptrajya sntral n catchup erl sharp on 12.arrive at kl sentral on 1230.kept our luggage there n shot to klcc plak.lunch der.urghh.xigt dunie coz my bus wuz on 330 n its 245,me n shaz still at klcc for shopping spree.rush back to kl sentral take my luggage n patahbalik to masjid jamek.n so on till i reached plaza rakyat.its 320! woah!~ if i miss da previous tren.i think i had to buy another ticket to ipoh.XP
lucky me.even thou i’m not so expert n familiar wif dis lrt-putra-ktm thingy.

do u eva noticed dat i had melencong too far from my main topic? =P
i wuz suppose to xpress what do i felt after turning 20.but instead of dat.i told u guys bout dis crappy things.hohohoh.

becoming 20 early of da year really made me proud.huahuahua.my mom supposely gv birth to me at the late of year 86.but bcoz of same complication,now here i am.20.not 21 dis yr.huk~.
i do felt lyk tue oready compare to my fwens.but wth,in the end u guys still hv same age as mine!!
i hv to be matured dis tym.know my responsibilities as a student,as a good child to my parent,as a good lover,opss..its not tym yet,as a good fwens n so on.i haf to develop my confidence,my lack of public speaking skill,wakahkahakhehahra,stage fright,my music n ol.i’ve been thinking of being active in sports as well.i love squash n i think i haf to buy new racket dis yr.who knows one day i might be the nxt nicol david? kayo beb!n my study.i hope dat i’ll get much better dis yr.my rslt as well.dean list every sem.amin.

dat is my early plan for yr 2007.later on..dunno yet.but lets simply said dat i want the best for 2007.every obstacle.every challenge every pain will owez make me strong.

i’ve learned from da past.every bitter sweet from 2006 will be kept safely in my memories.how happy i am to get good rslt,my new driving license =P,holiday trip to medan,party,reducing my breat bdn =D,getting good friends etc.i’ve learned how to manage a heartbroken as well.muhauahruahruahue.

i’m hoping dat dis yr will run smoothly as i’ve plan.pray to Lord.

i’m so dem jealous.
i wanna fly as well.
fly fly fly so highh…~
soaring..flyinggg…
dun wanna stuck here.in m’siaa..
i wanna study oversea..huwaaaaaaaaaa =’(
gile jeles tahap 88.

deary bloggie.

imma psycho?

Ola Bloggie.

di saat aku kebosanan ini.aku rs cam nk update blog plak.tmbah lak.da lame ku xupdate blog ni since bln pose stat.

ujan renyai2 d luar sane.mungkinkah? ramadhan skrg da masuk mlm ke 27.ek?27 kan?ahaha.yekot.n i still xdpt figure out.ane satu mlm lailatulqadar.muhu~ bapak aaa.org cam aku ley ke seda mlm lailatulqadar?isk isk.byk dosa lg nih.adeyh laa…

pape pn.i juz finished my final xm.spt yg mmbe2 aku yg len taw.paper bapak aa pnye ssh.aku xtaw aku ley skor ke x.but most likely…most likely aaa…cm xley je.aku nmpk pointer 3.00 pn samar2.ahahaha.pape pn.i haf done my bes.skrg aku tawakal aje.mak aku ckp byk2 kn doa bln pose ni.moga2 Allah bantu aku.amin~ X)

skrg tgh cuti sem.gile sangap aku duk kt umah.mcm da xde mende nk wat.juz doin’ chores.everyday.boring2.hukhuk~.nk study.sape kate boley study kt umah?? xley.xley.miahahaha
alasan xley pakai.

klu aku review balik ape yg aku da bwat spjg bln ramadhan ni.nth la.aku xtaw ckup ke x ibadah yg aku bwat.stkt ni i dun miss any nyte without tarawih lg.syukur alhamdulilah.<kecuali time cuti aa> spt mlm2 ramadhan yg lepas2.heh.walopon tym final xm aritu.time bln pose.aku kuatkn juge iman aku g masjid ntuk terawih.yela.ane tahan tgk mmbe2 len study.kite g smyg terawih.nnt mesti dorang dpt study lg lebey dr kite.pade zahir nya mmg nmpk mcm tu.tp time aku kt tepeng dlu.bdk2 ni kasik tazkirah.dorang ckp.klu kite ade mase dgn Allah.kite bwat ibadah dgn Allah.nescaya Allah akan kasik kite lebih mase.cth nye study la kan.even thou kite study skit.tp yg masuk nye byk.InsyaAllah.aku pegang pd kata2 itu la.br ati aku rs lega skit.heeee =P

thn ni xdpt byk kad raye.koleksi aku stkt ni.br 2! ahahah~ dr nisah n aisya.kad wanis on the way.hihi.tu pn aku yg pakse suh kasik.skit gile aa.mahaha.spjg bln pose ni.mmg xpnh terlintas dlm pikiran aku nk kasik kad raye.beli kad raye pn xde terlintas dlm pale otak.juz wish2 mcm tu je.tru fs.sms.konon bajet teknologi aa.ahahaha.xpe aa.yg penting.dwet raye mesti ade lg.isk isk isk

bWat sume rakan2 ku d luar sane.yg sudi aa bc blog aku.aku mntk mahap sgt2.spjg berkawn dgn aku.kot2 aku ade ter menyusahkan korang.ter mrh korang.ter ngade2 ngn korang.ter jeling korang.ter sumpah korang.ter ckp korang bongok <slalu mangse aku si dynat aa.sowi2.heee>sume itu.aku bwat.kengkadang d luar kawalan aku.mntk maap.hope sudi terime kemaapan dr aku.pacar yg hina ini.

dats all for today.i guess.later on update lg.ciao~

dear bloggie,

nothing much to mumble.

juz wanna share my thoughtssssss dat i actually haf many such a wonderful friends.

tq’s for concern bout me.i’ll try to overcome my problems.

till then ya. =)

Dear Bloggie.

da lame xupdate.muhu~since aku duk cyber kot.mane pnh da nk update2 blog ni.xde mase kate nye.miahaha.

so here i am.once again.nk express kn ape yg aku feel ryt now.
lyf here suxxx gile.triple x tu.da mcm xde tujuan idup je aku duk cni.
everything went wrong.pe yg aku wat sme serba xkene dow.baek dr study.love-lyf.time management.
gile ah!
canne nk survive?

bout my study.kengkadang aku rs mcm aku slh pilih course.no.i shouldn’t take electronics majoring in telecomunication.coz ryt now.i felt lyk dying thinking bout all those circuit2 yg mmbuat kn aku headache x tentu pasal.i lost interest at all.sume subject aku dis sem.thou,i used to lyk maths tym high school dlu.gile minat! but now? the passion nk dtg ke clas pn da tarak! null! isk! tu pem.jgn ckp aa ecp.lg aaaaaaa.lgsg xde minat.duh!~

love lyf?
miahahahahaha.dunno.
lemme kept da story for myself.dun need to talk bout it here.=)
listen to "what hurts the most". by rascall flatts.u know whut i feel.huk~
very sad one.

time managment?
haha.seriously.damn sux.miahahaha.
i spend every nyte.chatting.imma chat addict.gosh!
pe nk wat ni?
klu x chat pn.surf tenet aa.thou aku rs mende tu x penting pn.
haish..
lg satu.sbb ade cyber tracker kot.
keje aku mendload cite jee aaa.dload tgk.dload tgk.so then bile nk study?
cite plak boley tahan bes.
dload.burn.dload burn.lame2 kopak dwet aku nk beli dvd sokmo.
dh aa skrg da ade hobby baru.ngk anime.
dynat aa aja.tgk ouran.pastu tgk pe lg nth azumao kot.aku pn xigt.
skrg tgh nk lyn bleach.getbackers.n maburaho.n prince tennis.ek?
sume tu mmbe2 yg rekemen.kate nye cite nye bes.so then.aku nk try tgk.tp aku xlyn aa cite sweet2 ni.agak aa rimas….

so then.ya’ll da tgk kan how do i spend my quALITY time?
useless.
miahahaha!~ =P

till then.nth bile nk update.bile2 aje.anytym.anywhere.
bile aku rs free.n ade mud.ni pn xde mud.so xde aa aku xplain sec pjg lebar how miserable my lyf wuz.ciyes! xtipu! tp aku mls nk cite kt sesape pn.bkn nye ade sape nk dgr.
kwn2 ade time mase gembira aje.yerp?

Ola blOg!
huk~..
finally..i’m back home!!
hohohohoh…bwat cuti sndri..balik dr melake ari jumaat..pastu balik sane smule ari rabu nxt week~..
yuuhhuuu…
sonok gilos..
btw..today woke up late..dlm pkul 12 tghari..tu pn da kne jerit dgn mak aku..
ni sbb dok melayan cite lost la ni..
menci tol..da addicted ngn cite tu..sanggup tdo pkul 5 sbb nk abeskn cite lost tu..
yela kan..aku da beberape episod ketinggalan..
ni dsbbkn ares ku yg mcm babun xnk start..nth ape mslh die.
aku px tarak taw..~
ohohoh..xley nk dload cite lost..
huh~makin byk persoalan dlm cite tu..
aku pn xtawu canne director die nk end up lost tu cenggane..
sbb cite tu da makin complicated!
haha…
locke kaki nye da sakit..
sape "henry gale" dn canne boley terlepas from the others?
guano sun boley mengandung sdgkn jin mandul? miracle?
canne dave boley wujud tgh2 utan..exist from nowhere?
libby and hurley..2-2 dr wad sakit jiwa..dorang same2 perasan real?mauahaha~
kate and jack..sejauh mane hubungan dorang?
walt yg tibe2 muncul dkt sempadan the others-survivors?
haaaaaaaaa…byk gilos..
aku rs xcukup ni 2nd season..mesti die nk topup season lg..huk~
lmbt laa nk abess…
stop bout lost…mmg aku admit da addict..aku akan tgk lost dgn penuh emosi..muaha
erk!~
bgn2..mak aku suh siap2…jom gi tasek raban..makan ikan bakar..
FYI..tasek raban dkt lenggong nun..xde la jauh mane..lebey kurang sejam smpai..
speeding? xsmpai sejam pn lew~
smpai je kt kedai makan tu..mcm2 nostalgia muncul dalam pale otak aku..
bile mase aku ternmpk sorang budak…eyh..bkn sorang..tp 2 org..bdk pakai baju batik mktb lame ku yg tercinte…MRSM GERIK..haih…lame da sgt aku tinggal kn sekolah tu b4 melanjutkan study ke tepeng lak..huk~..
pe la cite ek?
aku rs kt sane walopn ulu..tp kat sane la aku rs life mcm mane..
compare d tepeng…competition toooo high.too tough..and aku rs tercungap2 gk aa duk sane..sume mende nk kejar..and naseb baek la xtewas!..muahahaha…tp bored la gk..
study 24/7 kan..smpai aku naek gile! btoi!
so back in gerik..FI/19 num bilik ku…hahah~
consist of at first me..nisah..awanis..and adilla..tp dilla kuar mase dlm bln 9 form 1…
die ade mslh skit..lemah smgt and selalu kene kacau..
aku ngn nisah penah satu hari tu..dilla jatuh dr bukit..and then malam tu ktorg smbung katil tdo same2..konon nk guard dilla..but then..esok nye..aku n nisah kne gigit antu..mauahah..ade 3 lebam kt tgn aku..huk~
aku meng andaikan yg "makhluk2" ni mrh aku n nisah sbb guard dilla..
haha..nth la..pemikiran kanak2 lg kot time tu..al maklum la form1…
lps dilla blah..bilik tu mmg aku nisah and wanis je yg conquer..suke sgt!
bilik da besa..share bertige je..mane xbes..
aku..sbg supplier makanan terbesar dlm bilik..selalu memastikn rumet aku sme cukup makanan..
muahahah~
aaa..pastu same gk time form2 ..xde sape pn masuk blik ktorg..mase form 3 je…siah masuk..join da club..nsb bek mmg satu kepale ngn die..hahah~
mengong2 je time tu…kire ktorg sebilik mmg ngamcoi aa..and sume nye same tinggi and pulak tu..sume tinggi2 belaka..muahahaha! ske ske!
aku dlu kt gerik xde la pandai sgt..ahaha..at first..mase form1..aku pnye result elok..tp masuk form 2..aku lalai gilew dowh..result sume jatuh..xsilap aku pointer aku 2.63..pastu las sem form 2 dpt 2.64 je..muahah..naek setangge..frust tu mmg frust…tp nth knape..form 2 mmg lalai skit..byk maen..pastu ade mslh smpai nk masuk jdm..jdm? JEMAAH DISPLIN MAKTAB..hahah..
mcm mahkamah laaa..gilosssssss!
sbb pe?
errkkk…sbnr nye aku xde kene mengene dlm hal tu..ni sume stat dr kwn aku yg gatal tu..
ktorg..berape org ek?..haaa..8 org xsilap aku..bwat la satu buku khas..crite psl kwn2..
xpsl2 ade la sorang kwn aku ni bwat cite lucah!!!
hadoi..
aku pn xsmpat nk bc ape yg die tulis bile mase ckgu aku da rampas buku tu dr kwn aku..
bile cikgu tu tnye..sape yg bwat cite tu..ade ke ptt kwn aku ni sebot sume lapan name yg contribute crite dlm buku tu..padahal cikgu tu marah tang cite lucah tu jek..n sorang je yg terlibat..
atoi!
pastu da heboh..dkt bilik guru..kt kelas nisah pn same..cikgu zarina da bising2..
huk!~..
aku time tu mmg blur…nanges pn ye…sedeyh aa…abes la name kne black list..da buruk..
and ape lg..mcm2 ah..
tp lame2 cite psl buku tu snyap je..no further action..
maybe cikgu xmo panjang2 kan cite kot..
alhamdulilah..name aku x kotor lg..hahaha!
pastu aku ni sgt terkenal di kalangan warden blok ku..tmbah2 ckgu haryati..knal sgt aku..
hermm..sbb pe cikgu knal kite?
slh satu sbb pandai..lg satu?
haha..sbb aku ni kurang ajar laa ngek!~
dlu time form 1 pn…senior form3 gelarkn aku n 2 org lg kwn aku kurang ajar..
sbb aku xphm maksud keseniority tu dkt mane..ade ape pn pd beza umor 2 thn je?
lek lek dh aa..umo pn br 15..da belagak senior sgt..nth ke hape2..nympah gk aku..
then…aaaa…ape lg ek nk cite?
o0o..warden yg sorang tu mmg ske perli aku..pastu bilik aku prnh kene panggil!!
hahahaha…ade la..kne sita..gilew ah!
xpnh dibuat oleh bdk pemp..kahkahkah!psl ape ek?
bilik berselerak sgt kot?
xsilap aku lew..
hohohoh…
xpe2…bdk2 lagi.ape ku kesah..
naek form3 laa..form yg plg besh!!!
sgt njoy..walopn aku ni da termasuk dlm 2 klas yg terakhir…3 gigih!
walo canne pn aku gigih berusaha smpai dpt 8a..so no hal la tu.hekhek~
aaa…dlm kelas tu la aku ade knal sorang mamat..
aku knal die tru irc jek..knal2 gitu..xsangke plak sekelas..
at first aku n die biase je..tp nth canne..semakin baek la pulak..
baek+rapat..aku taw die ni playboy..
hahahah!
tp nk gk ske kt die..ske diam2 sudey..
pastu nth canne..boley terkapel..ujung taun gk aa..bln 9..14/9/2002..haha..igt!
tp tym kapel ngn aku pn..gtl gk ngn pemp len..hahaha..xpe laa..da mmg taw perangai sbnr die..
masuk form 4..ok lg…ujung form4..mcm retak menanti belah..hahah!
aku mntk clash..but die xkasik..
pastu..ms form5…aku xkontek lgsg..mls care psl die da…
n a day b4 aku gi kem pkn..aku clash ngn die…nsb bek aku yg mntk..sec official la..
klu tgk dr segi rupa..sndri mau phm laa..mmg mcm da xde pape pn..
tp those sweet memories wif him aku xkn lupekn..hahahah!
pesal mengimbau kenangan lame ni?
xpe la..luahan hati aku je..lgpn sape la sgt nk bc blog aku ni..
bc..terbace la..xbc..bkn rezeki..huhu..
ok la blog..stop ere..later continue..taaa